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Happy Birthday Qamarul.






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i've done things that i've learn to regret.
somethings that are undo-able.
that no amount of sorry's that can be forgiven.
i've hurt people in ways that i wish i hadn't.

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i don't know who i can trust anymore,
i used to think that friends don't talk about each
other behind their backs.
i used to think that all these could have been a misunderstanding,
but maybe they're like that.
they like to lie.
deceive.

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could it be that i'm the hypocritical one.

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i never meant for all this to happen,
i really didn't.

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"i wish i could retrace my steps,
i wish i could repay all my debts.
i heard all the things you said to me,
it saddens me cos it's reality.
i haven't been the best of character,
neither would you,
if you were in my shoes,
you would probably wither and disappear."

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