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oh well,
what's more to say?
i just spent an hour just
thinking about happenings
from this year.
barely a year pass
and my life changed
more than it did in
the last 17 years
i came of existence.

---

some leave while others
continue to stay.
some change while others
stay the same.
i guess we have to go
through this,
no matter how hard we
try to avoid it,
try to kick it under the carpet.
it just delays the pain,
delays the eventual pain
that will grow and hurt more.

---

i never meant to turn
out this way.
i never meant to hurt
you.
i never meant to make
you angry.
i'm wrong.
yes, i know.

---

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