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There's no reason for me to stay here anymore
there's nothing,
there's nothing.
i just don't know what the fuck is your problem
i don't know
fuck off
give me my space!
FUCK!
i don't know what to say anymore
i just don't know
I'm trying to rationalize everything
I'm trying to put everything into perspective.
i try
I'm not perfect, i know
you don't have to tell me
you don't have to remind me what i am in your eyes
you don't have to,
i know
it's the simple things that mattered,
i know i don't matter
i've never been
i have a lot of regrets in my life
a lot.
if money is so important to you
keep it bitch
keep it,
take it all
take it
i don't give a FUCK
i don't give a rat's ass to what you have to say
i've heard enough
enough!
i have to be patient,
FUCK YOU!!
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and yan,
i feel like i have to get this off my chest
i'm sorry
FUCK YOU!!
u don't know the one thing about me
and you have the balls to judge me,
mister gangster..
you can FUCK OFF for all i care!
fuck you
u have no fucking idea what's going on!
no idea..
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i'm ok, seriously
most of the time
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Listening to: Secondhand Serenade - Stranger
via FoxyTunes

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