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yesterday was probably the gerek-est day ever
hahs
i met the coolest taxi driver ever,
smoke in his cab,
drove like 130km/h most of the time..
hahs
bitching about "KELING-KIA"
i had to admit,
i've always had this thing against chinese people,
but the people i met yesterday
showed me that not all of them are disgusting,
nose-picking, son of a bitches.
the taxi driver, the dude who gave us 3 free tickets..
enough of this.
the atmosphere at the stadium was quite ok,
quite a turn-out..
Singapore actually put up a fight,
quite shocking
Duric was marvelous,
Precious was outstanding in defence,
Lionel prove he is still the No. 1 keeper in S'pore
the rest of the players are quite good,
shi jiayi has a very good vision,
his ball passing is also superb.
after winning this match,
i hope S'pore can go all the way
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"My worst fear is being what you want me to be
Never would i imagined that things were
screwed up like this.
Your words, all lies makes me wanna cry
Trying to pretend things are alright
was my mistake
After seeing what you could do,
i made up my mind
I would never be a part of you even though
you will always be a part of me."
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"Oceans, devotions, these notions run dry
Floating away and I don't know why
Spend all my days in a bottle thinking
You're like an anchor got me sinking"

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Listening to: Nada Surf - I Like What You Say
via FoxyTunes

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