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The day i feared would always happen..
a day where i would i actually lay my hand on my father
bloody hell, i lost all sense of self-control today
i never meant to do it
i never meant to do it
what you're angry at me for choosing the wrong course
in ite.come on
my friends has nothing to do with the choices i make..
and don't u ever dare try to bring my friends into this
u jerk
you wanna see attitude, take this bitch
i'll never be good enough for u is it..
i try so hard, u will never know that
u know why i take electrical, fool
i place that as my 2nd choice because mama wants me to.
no.. u don't wanna hear to reason,
u egoistic, shallow jerk
it's not all about climbing things bitch
fuck, i don't even know how to get my point in your fickle-minded brain
what is your problem,
and what, because i fidget around, u wanna kick me
u wanna kick me
u wanna bloody kick me
i would just sit down if i'm around 12
i'm sorry,
i'm sorry
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"Things aren't not what they seem anymore,
i tried my best,
but my best is never good enough for you.
what will it take to please u,
i'll never know"

"i wish i was still that little boy on your lap,
i wish i was still that little boy on your shoulders
i wish for a lot of things,
things that will only live in my memories
i've grown up to somebody u don't know,
maybe it's better of this way"

"better off this way"

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Listening to: Jonathan Rice - So Sweet
via FoxyTunes

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