Devil said Dance

money would solve my problems or at least numb the pain at least.

but i barely have it and it's glaringly painful.

i would have helped a lot of people if i had money.

how do i let this pain go?

i am the king of pretending one day and the next i am in pieces.

i am in pain and i don't know how to make it go away.

what if i made different choices in key decisions of my life.

i would be around people i love, i would still have friends, i would still be in a family nuclei.

would i be happy then? would i be fulfilled?

but the decisions i've made has either killed or blocked these scenarios from ever happening or working out.

That's the truth, and i have to learn to be okay with that.

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