31 this year and still suffering from shit that happened a while back. Still getting nightmares when i get sleep. i need to learn to live in my head, i don't know if that is a good thing but that is the only thing that i can do. i am still stuck here, dead end job but i can use this place cos i literally don't do shit here. i have to keep reminding myself that i have a plan and the plan is working.
what would be better if everything is to end now for this pathetic excuse of a life and a waste of space of an existence that i call life now. 1. No more pain in my heart and head. 2. No more stressing about money, about being able to afford dinner tonight. 3. Just be free in the nothingness of the darkness. 4. Can't be a disappointment and a failure when there is nothing in the dark huh -- what is the word that describes the pain in your heart and soul that is beyond thought? i am the poison, that's why people leave me. i hope that this gets me through one more day.
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