Devil said Dance

what does it mean to behave appropriately, to act your age? we are being scrutinized every time we step out of the house. do we allow them to get under our skin or do we grow a brain and let bygones be bygones. --- friends. where the hell do i start, you can't live without them but they are one of the most painful and hardest thing to maintain. you can pretend that you know a person for a very long time, but when things are the most complicated, they are nothing more than a stranger. that's when it hurts like hell. what are some things "friends" fight over, the first few things that came to my mind are, girls, clothes, money, jealousy, girls and more girls. i don't want to get into detail of the other things as these already prove to be very stupid. i must admit i am not a very good friend either, i'm sure most of you agree on that, --- do we fix broken relationships, or do we sit all day mulling over what could have been. if we choose the logical one, is it w

Don't Quit by: Unknown Author When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill, When funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh. When care is pressing you down a bit. Rest, if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns As every one of us sometimes learns. And many a failure turns about When he might have won had he stuck it out: Don't give up though the pace seems slow - You may succeed with another blow. Success is failure turned inside out - The silver tint of the clouds of doubt. And you never can tell how close you are. It may be near when it seems so far: So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit It's when things seem worst that you must not quit. ---

i've removed the tagboard, stupid spammers. --- school's getting interesting, and for the first time in over 6 years, i'm interested in school. --- hah! --- i get it now, no matter how long i wait. you'll never come back. i'll deal with it. denial is indeed more easier than the cold, hard truth. --- "We like to think that we are rational beings; humane, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful. But when things fall apart, even just a little, it becomes clear, we are not better than animals. We think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream, but deep down we're still routing around in the primordial ooze; biting, clawing, scratching out an existence in the cold, dark world like the rest of the tree-toads and sloths." i want to congratulate those who finally got what they wanted, have a good life.

school's not as great as i would like it to be. but it'll do. potentially great friends. --- "trust is the easiest thing to lose, but one of the hardest to attain"

"that sick feeling in your gut, when you disappoint people around you. when they talk with a low voice, when you realized that you have crossed the line. too far out that looking back doesn't help. you wish that you can go back, and just change the past."

i've been watching the news these few days, surprisingly to some. and i've heard about the earthquake in Italy. quite bad for a mere 6.3 magnitude, considered a baby to some seismologist. --- fun fact, this is what i think of arguments on the internet. just laugh, fuckers! --- thanks for the good times, steve. Wrestlemania was fucking awesome!

Happy Birthday Qamarul. --- i've done things that i've learn to regret. somethings that are undo-able. that no amount of sorry's that can be forgiven. i've hurt people in ways that i wish i hadn't. --- i don't know who i can trust anymore, i used to think that friends don't talk about each other behind their backs. i used to think that all these could have been a misunderstanding, but maybe they're like that. they like to lie. deceive. --- could it be that i'm the hypocritical one. --- i never meant for all this to happen, i really didn't. --- "i wish i could retrace my steps, i wish i could repay all my debts. i heard all the things you said to me, it saddens me cos it's reality. i haven't been the best of character, neither would you, if you were in my shoes, you would probably wither and disappear."

how do i say what i wanna say without saying it. don't bother thinking. --- it was fun while it lasted.