Devil said Dance

every word you say, it's killing me. i don't know what's happening to me, the headaches are getting worse. who i am hates who i've been, really simple quotes to distinguish reality from fantasy. ----------------- "distancing myself from reality it hurts too much here" ---------------- Now playing: Blink 182 - Adam's Song via FoxyTunes

it's been a while since i've been here, many a times i find myself staring at this blank screen, foggy images of recent happenings floating in my head. i don't know where to start and i don't know where to end.. but all i know is that i have a lot of "sorry's" to say, first and foremost, i've not only let myself down, i've let a friend down. i guess i can't please everybody, especially NOT at the same time secondly, to the ranger girls, i'm sorry if i come across as rude and obnoxious sometimes, i just.. i don't know what to say, i don't know.. i'm sorry, ok? i'm so sorry.. people ask me why i bother, i say "he's my friend" but i still mess it up, i know this would happen, i know.. i just don't know why i let it happen. i wish i could replay it back again things are so confusing.. i feel like all this happened before.. my head is so giddy.. i don't want to lose my friends, but why do i do things that...

school starts on monday, and i haven't buy shoes yet. ---------- people who's mindset is still in the '50s should be shot. bloody hell.. -------- i'm done listening to your crap, i'm done giving way to you, i'm done following your lead. ------- like you said, "mak?, why u call me mak? i'm not your mak?, mak kau dar mati" ------- i've chosen this path, i cannot turn back, i can't even look back. i'm sorry -------- "all our fears will eat us inside out, i never meant for this to happen, i really didn't." "1, 2 Fuck you, i won't change for you" ---------------- Listening to: Cobra Starship - The Kids Are All Fucked Up via FoxyTunes

human beings are queer creatures, u and i. no matter how i try to steer myself away from the matter, we are who we are. some of us hide our feelings under the creases of our heart, whilst some of us put ours on broad sleeves. i can safely say that i've met a lot of very frighteningly interesting people. some outrageously insane, some incredibly timid, few beautifully black-hearted. i never said i'm better than any of them, and i know i probably never will. what's the purpose of our existence, why are we here. why? i guess we're just part of the master plan or aren't we? ---------------- Listening to: Damien Rice - 9 Crimes via FoxyTunes

Happy Birthday, Qamarul Arrifin Bin Abdul Rasheed a.k.a Qua Saikong. Knowing you has been my Pleasure, quite surprisingly, hahs I pray for your long life and your well being, whenever i'm praying, of course. ----------------- Thank You, Cik Rasheed and Munira for the treat, baby! ------------- "no matter how hard we try to conceal it, the skeletons keep popping in our closets. no matter how hard we try to lie, all our secrets will surface one day" "i'm holding on, but you're letting go. i'm making pancakes, you're leaving home." "i've tried to love you, i know u did too. we're too different, me and you." ---------------- Listening to: Iron & Wine - Naked As We Came via FoxyTunes

yesterday was probably the gerek-est day ever hahs i met the coolest taxi driver ever, smoke in his cab, drove like 130km/h most of the time.. hahs bitching about "KELING-KIA" i had to admit, i've always had this thing against chinese people, but the people i met yesterday showed me that not all of them are disgusting, nose-picking, son of a bitches. the taxi driver, the dude who gave us 3 free tickets.. enough of this. the atmosphere at the stadium was quite ok, quite a turn-out.. Singapore actually put up a fight, quite shocking Duric was marvelous, Precious was outstanding in defence, Lionel prove he is still the No. 1 keeper in S'pore the rest of the players are quite good, shi jiayi has a very good vision, his ball passing is also superb. after winning this match, i hope S'pore can go all the way ----------- "My worst fear is being what you want me to be Never would i imagined that things were screwed up like this. Your words, all lies makes me wanna cr...

happy birthday, mak you are already old, haha --------- "things are getting better, skies are becoming clearer. whatever is the matter, it can wait till later" ----------- i love us, rangers! -------- why do i even bother, i don't know why i give a damn maybe.. FUCK IT!!!!! ---------------- Listening to: Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes via FoxyTunes