it's been a while since i've been here,
many a times i find myself staring at this blank screen,
foggy images of recent happenings floating in my head.
i don't know where to start and i don't know where to end..

but all i know is that i have a lot of "sorry's" to say,
first and foremost,
i've not only let myself down,
i've let a friend down.
i guess i can't please everybody,
especially NOT at the same time

secondly,
to the ranger girls,
i'm sorry if i come across as rude and obnoxious sometimes,
i just..

i don't know what to say,
i don't know..

i'm sorry, ok?
i'm so sorry..

people ask me why i bother,
i say "he's my friend"
but i still mess it up,

i know this would happen,
i know..
i just don't know why i let it happen.

i wish i could replay it back again

things are so confusing..

i feel like all this happened before..
my head is so giddy..

i don't want to lose my friends,
but why do i do things that hurt them and make them angry.

i don't know..

empty,
hollow

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"hi, i'm mr jerk-face"

"i'm sorry,
my mind is a blank,
i can't think"

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