Devil said Dance

i've never felt so bad, i've always wanted things to be right but circumstances don't allow me to ----------------------------- i know u are sick, i know i over-reacted to some things i don't know how and what to say.. i've said too many things that i know have hurt you too many things -------------------- i heard you cry yourself to sleep, i wasn't sleeping, it broke my heart i knew i hurt you ----------------- and yan, thanks for the advice ---------------- Mira, get well soon! ----------------------- " so many things i wished i hadn't done, so many things i wished i had left unsaid and undone makes me realize my actions were reckless, the pain i felt, i don't wanna feel it again." --------------------------- ---------------- Listening to: All Time Low - Six Feet Under The Stars via FoxyTunes

" don't tell me what i can't do, don't ever tell me that " " empty promises, full lies, hazy truth, it's all bull!" ---------------- Listening to: Taylor Swift - I'm Only Me When I'm With You via FoxyTunes

The day i feared would always happen.. a day where i would i actually lay my hand on my father bloody hell, i lost all sense of self-control today i never meant to do it i never meant to do it what you're angry at me for choosing the wrong course in ite.come on my friends has nothing to do with the choices i make.. and don't u ever dare try to bring my friends into this u jerk you wanna see attitude, take this bitch i'll never be good enough for u is it.. i try so hard, u will never know that u know why i take electrical, fool i place that as my 2nd choice because mama wants me to. no.. u don't wanna hear to reason, u egoistic, shallow jerk it's not all about climbing things bitch fuck, i don't even know how to get my point in your fickle-minded brain what is your problem, and what, because i fidget around, u wanna kick me u wanna kick me u wanna bloody kick me i would just sit down if i'm around 12 i'm sorry, i'm sorry --------------------------- ...

"Your words, burn my resistance away. Your words, break my heart. i'm sorry, i never meant to turn out this way.. i never meant to throw it all in your face. i never meant to do a lot of things. This time around, i'll make sure i do it carefully too much is at stake.." --------------------------------- to the rangers, i miss u guys like crazy.. maybe not eri...hahs to faz..i love u like hell to mira, where the hell u go? to eri, i hate Sats, to qua, waaa pergi negeri aku nampak..i miss u like crazy ---------------- Listening to: Secondhand Serenade - Stay Close, Don't Go via FoxyTunes

it's been a hectic few weeks, first of all i would like to apologize to some people. sorry pa, i didn't make it for your birthday party, sorry auntie, i know i was a bad employee sorry fazz, i should have layan-ed you more..hahs ------------------------------------------- i'm sick and tired of trying to please people, i know i'll never be able to. i know i'll never be able to. your words are like poison, it eats me up from inside, leaving me hollow and empty. ------------------------------------- "I don't get you . . I can't forget what you've forgotten All along I've never been so alone" "Your fascination With naked walls of silk and skin With no conditions I needed you to notice.... That's all I wanted" "We can not hide what we've become So sick and tired of being numb It's done, it's done It's done" ---------------- Listening to: Arctic Monkeys - Bigger Boys and Stolen Sweethearts via FoxyTunes

results are back, and i failed like shit.. seriously..i know i'm dumb.. but THIS dumb..come on.. i can't even bear to see the pink slip ever again.. i don't wanna sound like a sissy but.. even i disappoint myself.. there's no other words to describe it.. i'm so lost.. i need to get on with my fucking life. and maybe things don't come my way cause' i forget HIM i don't think of him, i don't thank him.. i feel like i have to prove something to everybody.. your faces say it all...it hit me..i let you guys down i let myself down, maybe i'm crapping and my head is playing with me.. i replayed all kinds of scenario of what could happen.. it's just that i missed the part where i would fail badly.. damn it.. i'm just lucky to have friends like qua, faz, mira, eri, jup, faritz and lately khairi..yes...thanks for the encouragements, that's all i need for now.. u tend to take granted of things and only begin to realize your mistakes once you not...

"the pain keeps pulling me back to reality, whenever i distant myself from it. your words pierce my heart, your actions tear it apart. i never meant for this to happen, i never meant for this to happen." ------------------------------ need space, join NASA baby... remember fazwan... hahaha i don't get what she meant.. ok wadeva..i don't care anymore i know that we are worlds apart.. worlds apart.. it's okay.. i'm retreating, i'm retreating.. ---------------- Listening to: As Tall As Lions - Love, Love, Love via FoxyTunes