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results are back,
and i failed like shit..
seriously..i know i'm dumb..
but THIS dumb..come on..
i can't even bear to see the pink slip ever again..
i don't wanna sound like a sissy but..
even i disappoint myself..
there's no other words to describe it..
i'm so lost..
i need to get on with my fucking life.
and maybe things don't come my way cause' i forget HIM
i don't think of him, i don't thank him..
i feel like i have to prove something to everybody..
your faces say it all...it hit me..i let you guys down
i let myself down, maybe i'm crapping
and my head is playing with me..
i replayed all kinds of scenario of what could happen..
it's just that i missed the part where i would fail badly..
damn it..
i'm just lucky to have friends like qua, faz, mira, eri, jup, faritz
and lately khairi..yes...thanks for the encouragements,
that's all i need for now..
u tend to take granted of things and
only begin to realize your mistakes
once you notice they are all slipping away..
and that's when it's too late..
ok..i guess..now i need time to get my shit together.
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"and all of the love i threw away,
and all of the hopes I've cherished fades,
making the same mistakes again,
making the same mistakes again"
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Listening to: Oasis - The Masterplan
via FoxyTunes

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