i tried sharing my pain to an old friend and she told me i was seeking attention, 

my heart broke and that is how i knew i am alone.

i tried to let someone know i am going through this but when i do i get it all thrown in my face again.

at least now i know there is no one i can turn to.

maybe some lives are not meant to be spectacular.

don't act as if you did not kick me out of the house, don't act as if you traded my future and my money for your own flesh and blood, you killed me, i have grown up with fear and anger and ridicule that was always reserved for me from the get go, i wish your family the best but a part of it i am no more.

here's hoping i won't wake up tomorrow.