why am i getting so emotional whenever im updating my blog, a lot of years worth of pain is in this, no one will ever read this nor know that i have a blog. i hate having no money, i hate having ask from you guys, you think i want to? if you want me to fucking work, i'll fucking work goddamnit, and everyone fucking thinks i have money, like i don't even have a dollar on me, i'm not asking for your sympathy, seriously. i feel that you don't care at all, you said you're gonna help me with this, nothing's been happening, what do you mean that you're gonna help? you are not giving me any more money, i get it, for fuck sake what do you want me to do? steal? i can do that, easily. but i don't want to be that person anymore, i really don't. it's very hard to wake up everyday and know that nothing is guaranteed, i hate the fact that i'm so weak, mentally physically and emotionally. i just want this all to end, end please end.
waking up to the curses of incorrigible bastards are a norm.. laughing at their idiocy is also a norm.. hahaha.. ------ i can't say that i'm not disappointed, i just didn't expect it to be like this i wish things could be the same as they used to. i don't know.. ------ and i wish you would just tell me.. tell me and i won't bother you again i can be a hell of a persistent bitch if i want but i'm tired of chasing you.. i see no point in doing that anymore no point.. ------ and to the women that took care of me my whole life, not being ungrateful or what, but, you are such a bitch sometimes.. i know i have no right in calling u that but you just make yourself hate-able sometimes thanks a lot f***** ------ do girls come with manuals, pissing me off, really! must i be cautious of what i say? Fuck it! ------ "i miss my past, i hate my present, i can't wait for my future." "i'm lying if i say i don't need you, cause i really do, but it doesn...
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