I'm not okay, no matter how many times I try to convince myself I'm okay. I don't know what to feel, think or do. Sleep eludes me. If I know any better, I think I'm losing my mind. Maybe it's how things drastically change, how people around me change. I do not like it. Not one bit. Maybe it's me losing my mind. I don't know. My whole family is fake, my friends are fake. So bloody fake. I feel weird, like everything is not real, I really don't know how to describe it, ya know. I don't have people anyone to talk to, that's why I'm typing it down. I don't know how long more I can control myself, I feel so angry, all the time, I feel like punching someone so hard my hand goes through their face. I feel like taking a knife and burying it in their gut. I don't know why, it just is. I feel so empty, so hollow. Filled with anger, rage. So much anger my hand trembles when I think about it. I just want it to end. All of it. Everything. Please.
waking up to the curses of incorrigible bastards are a norm.. laughing at their idiocy is also a norm.. hahaha.. ------ i can't say that i'm not disappointed, i just didn't expect it to be like this i wish things could be the same as they used to. i don't know.. ------ and i wish you would just tell me.. tell me and i won't bother you again i can be a hell of a persistent bitch if i want but i'm tired of chasing you.. i see no point in doing that anymore no point.. ------ and to the women that took care of me my whole life, not being ungrateful or what, but, you are such a bitch sometimes.. i know i have no right in calling u that but you just make yourself hate-able sometimes thanks a lot f***** ------ do girls come with manuals, pissing me off, really! must i be cautious of what i say? Fuck it! ------ "i miss my past, i hate my present, i can't wait for my future." "i'm lying if i say i don't need you, cause i really do, but it doesn...
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