what do you know of pain? it is almost always associated with something physical but it's the one you feel inside that actually hurts the most. It's when people close to you say you will never amount to anything. So what do you think of pain? It's when you finally realized that after years and years of thinking you know someone, they can instantly change in the blink of an eye and becoming just another stranger that you see walking past you in the bus or train. see you again soon.
These past few days has been shittier than normal. How do you stay positive? Maybe it's all the junk i stuff in my face, hoping to fill the big motherfucking hole in my life. I'm so deep in the hole that the light goes in and out for a split second before it disappears and leave me, There was a time when i used to look forward to the future, but my body physically cringes at the thought of trying to live for another day, i sit here and wait for things to change which i know that it fucking won't but i still wait. I have cut ties from everyone that i know, all the "family and friends" but the truth is sometimes they are the ones who cut ties with me, it's hard being honest with myself cos sometimes i lie to myself to just make it through the day, that people around me actually gave a fuck but they don't. am i a narcissist? the thoughts in my head gets so deafening that i prefer silence most of the time. and when it all dials down i need to blast music in my...
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