what do you know of pain? it is almost always associated with something physical but it's the one you feel inside that actually hurts the most. It's when people close to you say you will never amount to anything. So what do you think of pain? It's when you finally realized that after years and years of thinking you know someone, they can instantly change in the blink of an eye and becoming just another stranger that you see walking past you in the bus or train. see you again soon.
i feel it all going away, i closed my eyes and my youth is gone and i am old now, with nothing to my name, my shadow being my only company. my dreams get darker by the day, the crevice where my soul should be gets emptier and more hollow. but in my darkest times, memories of people i consider family at one point in my life crosses my mind and before my heart breaks everything seemed okay for that couple of minutes, and then reality sets in. and everything comes into focus how do you go on and pretend everything's okay when you know deep down inside that it's better off dying than to be alone. i have been alone for so long that i find myself actively avoiding everyone even though i want to be around people that want me to be around but that does not exist. everyone leaves eventually and i hate that it's still painful whenever it comes to mind, people i consider friends and family ghosting and eventually i am alone. Maybe that's how my life is supposed to end up, tired an...
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