what do you know of pain? it is almost always associated with something physical but it's the one you feel inside that actually hurts the most. It's when people close to you say you will never amount to anything. So what do you think of pain? It's when you finally realized that after years and years of thinking you know someone, they can instantly change in the blink of an eye and becoming just another stranger that you see walking past you in the bus or train. see you again soon.
My year has been nothing but pain and disappointments, but so has my life, i am broke, alone and the thought of ending it all comes to my mind everyday. i have gone through one hell of a storm and somehow i am still here, i don't know how, i don't know why. it must be a sick joke to someone i guess. i am haunted by what could have been, i am ashamed of how i fucked it all up. i am ashamed of how i let other people fuck it up on my behalf, if only i knew better. but what's done is done and i am reaping what i sow. I wish everyone who is reading this dreadful post a happy new year, may it be filled with happiness and love.
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