i really wanted to do this to change my life, i know you did you had to do, it just sucks to be at my expense. it's been almost a month of me doing nothing, i know i should be doing something other than this. i feel like i had an idea what i wanted to do, but all i'm left with is emptiness now, i feel lost, i feel like i lost my way. i know that i have to get a job but everytime i want to do it, there's this little voice that whispers to me what could have been different. i'm just tired of being a nobody, i will change my life, with or without an education.
results are back, and i failed like shit.. seriously..i know i'm dumb.. but THIS dumb..come on.. i can't even bear to see the pink slip ever again.. i don't wanna sound like a sissy but.. even i disappoint myself.. there's no other words to describe it.. i'm so lost.. i need to get on with my fucking life. and maybe things don't come my way cause' i forget HIM i don't think of him, i don't thank him.. i feel like i have to prove something to everybody.. your faces say it all...it hit me..i let you guys down i let myself down, maybe i'm crapping and my head is playing with me.. i replayed all kinds of scenario of what could happen.. it's just that i missed the part where i would fail badly.. damn it.. i'm just lucky to have friends like qua, faz, mira, eri, jup, faritz and lately khairi..yes...thanks for the encouragements, that's all i need for now.. u tend to take granted of things and only begin to realize your mistakes once you not...
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