The past few weeks has been draining, especially emotionally, i now know that the money for my diploma is almost gone and it's not even my fault. I'm not angry nor am i sad. Don't cry before me, i know what you will do what you have to do to keep the family afloat, it just gets a bit harder, that's all. And you don't have to return it also, at least the money have helped you, don't go about saying you wanna pawn your jewelry and stuff, i'm not asking you to return it. Please be strong.
results are back, and i failed like shit.. seriously..i know i'm dumb.. but THIS dumb..come on.. i can't even bear to see the pink slip ever again.. i don't wanna sound like a sissy but.. even i disappoint myself.. there's no other words to describe it.. i'm so lost.. i need to get on with my fucking life. and maybe things don't come my way cause' i forget HIM i don't think of him, i don't thank him.. i feel like i have to prove something to everybody.. your faces say it all...it hit me..i let you guys down i let myself down, maybe i'm crapping and my head is playing with me.. i replayed all kinds of scenario of what could happen.. it's just that i missed the part where i would fail badly.. damn it.. i'm just lucky to have friends like qua, faz, mira, eri, jup, faritz and lately khairi..yes...thanks for the encouragements, that's all i need for now.. u tend to take granted of things and only begin to realize your mistakes once you not...
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