Devil said Dance

i'm still me, i'm always here. screw u if that's what you think. --- i have my problems, i just don't like to talk about me. i don't like it. i like to immerse myself in other people's problems cos' it helps me forget about mine temporarily. --- how many times do i have to break before i shatter? --- and listen here carefully rangers, i miss u guys! i miss the company. i miss the laughter. i miss the innocence. i miss everything. why did we throw everything away? why did we give up that easily? why do we have to behave like this? sigh.. i'm just sick of crying, i'm just sick of thinking, i'm just sick of being in denial --- "takder korg, takder aku!"

oh well, what's more to say? i just spent an hour just thinking about happenings from this year. barely a year pass and my life changed more than it did in the last 17 years i came of existence. --- some leave while others continue to stay. some change while others stay the same. i guess we have to go through this, no matter how hard we try to avoid it, try to kick it under the carpet. it just delays the pain, delays the eventual pain that will grow and hurt more. --- i never meant to turn out this way. i never meant to hurt you. i never meant to make you angry. i'm wrong. yes, i know. ---

with you all the way, if down it is then i'll go down with ya'll! ----- Hari Raya was great, haha. ----- ---------------- Now playing: T-Pain - SIXTY NINE TIMES via FoxyTunes

these past few days have really been an eye opener for me. --- i guess we have changed too much that it hurts just to look back once in a while. it hurts to even think of the memories, of the better times, when we were all laughing. --- i guess we all have to grow up, sooner or later. it hurts me to see some people that i grew up with, change, just grew different, just drifted apart from me, from, themselves. --- I'm hood, bitch! haha! ---

a whirlwind, too many things overloaded. i can't explain. --- thank you aidil, for teman-ing me the whole night at bk.. stealing roti, drinking kopi. it doesn't get any better than that. --- i'll deal with my probs, i'll be just fine, i'll be okay --- the air seems clearer and cleaner between us all, stupid fights, haha stupid boys, that's what we are and will always be --- hari raya sucks, fark it!, --- to and fro, sgh is my second home my dad's a regular customer there.. i'll get past it all, just look. --- i think the more we try to mend it, the more we break it.. and the more we lose it. and when we lose it.. We have nothing.

I've been m.i.a from here for quite some time.. --- i think it's time to update, hahaha... --- so hari raya just passed us, never was a day in my life that i worked harder to clean my house.. fark! --- i hate entertaining those idiot pakciks and kaypohs makciks.. bloody idiots, farking swine! --- I've just realized something, hari raya is just a time where people pay u to eat their food and kuih.. think about it.. --- selamat hari raya, pricks!