i'm trying. i'm really trying, i just need a little help if that's not too much to ask. i feel age creeping up on me and i have nothing to show for it, i alienate myself from my friends, my peers and the adopted family thinking it would make me feel better but it does not, it just makes the screaming in my head echo inside, making it louder. i want to feel peace, i want to be somewhere that i belong. i can't live like this much longer, paycheck to paycheck, looking for rooms to rent. i hate it, i hate it all