I feel myself floating away, My head is not here My heart is not here What am I doing here I don't know what I'm doing 99% of the time --- I don't have nothing left. I don't have nothing left
My heart is numb, My soul is shattered, My mind keeps getting foggy, Why am I still fighting to stay alive when I have no reason to? Why am I still crying everytime I peek into the box that I kept locked deep inside? I am supposed to be grown but I'm not. I blame how I am now for the way life turned out for me, I know it's not healthy to and shit but that is my truth.
31 this year and still suffering from shit that happened a while back. Still getting nightmares when i get sleep. i need to learn to live in my head, i don't know if that is a good thing but that is the only thing that i can do. i am still stuck here, dead end job but i can use this place cos i literally don't do shit here. i have to keep reminding myself that i have a plan and the plan is working.
i want to keep writing down shit but 5 mins in i will start crying. i want to heal but everytime i i want to start healing, the wound opens up again. i just want to find my peace.