money's a bitch. too much and it control you. too little and you become a criminal. --- you shouldn't have made me one of your own. now i want your other children have. i know i'm selfish. but in the end, we have to be. --- sometimes, i feel that suicide is the only way out. i know, i know. "you're being naive, god doesn't like it" screw god. where is he when i needed him. i'm done. --- i'm sorry for not updating. i feel that i've lost myself. soul searching starts all over again. --- i miss you, mom.