i tried being positive and happy, i feel like i am getting punched in the gut every day till i can't breathe. This life is not for me, i have nothing, i have no money, i have no friends, i have no family. i don't see any way out, ending it all is looking like the only choice i have. i can't do many more of this, i'm just tired of crying, i'm just tired of my soul aching. i deserve this pain.