i dreamt i was living an easy life, surrounded by people who i love, where i had no issues. i just found you passed on years ago, all this while you were my salvation from all the pain i've caused to so many people. you did not treat me differently and yet you are gone too and i didn't know all this time. and my heart is breaking into a million more pieces. i wished you knew you gave me strength when i was struggling, you gave me belief in myself that i wasn't different and now i will never have the chance to thank you, but i'm gonna try with what time i have left to make you and your brother proud. i love you uncle mamat.